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May 9th, 2008 @ 9:01pm
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it's been so long since i've been here.
but it's not like i'll go back to blogging.
i'm just bored.
i guess this year,
is the testing year.
i've started boxing.
dad bought a boxing dummy.
i've been boxing ever since.
it's nice. not like i use it to release stress.
cos its more tiring that way.
i've began to like exercising.
especially when i'm doing it by myself with my music
blasting out loud.
at least i've got something to pass the time
when i cannot sleep at night. rather then being
on the com watching drama after drama which,after a while
will get in my sensitive brain cells.
well,last paper today.i am happy.
really.
today is also Michelle's birthday,so.
Happy Birthday Michelle(:
well that is all.
till next time.
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| さよラなら。 maybe it's for the best?haha. |
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March 28th, 2008 @ 9:54pm
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and i thank god for making me secretly sick.
i think more of sick in the mind then body-ly sick.
but whatever, i thank him for making me sick and for ce
who prayed that i'll be sick. thanks. cos i really need this holiday.
i won't say its a want. because it is not. it is a need.
off to malaysia tmr, like i always do around this time of the year.
i hope i get sick-er[not in mind please,its the last thing i want].
i hope monday never comes,
but if it does,like it always do.
then God, you're a mean person.
for making me dig out my little-to-nothing courage.
p.s: lj's being a bitch. so i this will be my last post.
さようなら。
友達。ほんと わかりません。
the bin or the shelf?
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March 18th, 2008 @ 6:59pm
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through out this life time of mine,
i realised 2 things.
one. courage is needed if not,the world will eat you whole.
two. there are no such things as companions in life's journey.
there is only 'me,myself and i'
so i guess whatever you do, the world will try to ruin you.
thus saving yourself is always needed.
so this is my conclusion of the world. it is corrupted.
and the only thing that makes me sane nowadays is my fandom.
thank god for that(:
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| cause talk is cheap |
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March 17th, 2008 @ 5:48pm
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School's started again.
and you know,this shouldn't be hurting me so.
no, cos i'm suppose to have forgotten and gotten over it all.
but why?why when after all these months of having persuaded myself
that you were the worst mistake in my life.
why must your stupid name flash across my mind?!
tell me?cos i was so much better of not thinking and not caring.
and yesterday,was the worst nightmare i've ever had.
no matter how much i wish to talk and see you again,
i know its not right.i know i cannot.
i guess you can say im upsettingly happy.
haha.
you asked me to come and choose the hamster i want,
you said you'd get one for me.
Then you said you're hamsters giving birth soon,
so you'll pass me one when she gives birth.
but then you ask if i still want to come
and play with the pets at your work.
a part of me knows these are all lies.
but another part still wants to believe you.
i think im insane. no, this is driving me insane.
And hold onto your words
‘Cause talk is cheap
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March 16th, 2008 @ 2:06pm
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yesterday had girl guides.hiked at s.b nature reserve[i'm too lazy to type the whole name]
cam-ed lots.but too lazy to upload,so yea.
after hike ate at hk cafe.food was good.
our total bill was an absolutely pretty number.
$90.00. haha. the gst was wow really.
school's starting.dies-
gonna cook the potato dish tmr.
and since i'm the one who's going to eat it after i take a
picture of the dish i decided that it should taste edible.
heh(:
mom decided to help so thank god.
and did i mention her cook book is super complicating!!!
dies-
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March 8th, 2008 @ 4:12pm
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_____________________________
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| YOU'RE BRINGING OUT |
| THE BEST IN ME!(: |
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cos i owe it all to you,
for making me realise that i can be whoever
i choose to be. cos whichever i choose,
i'll always still be me(:
thank you for being patient with me and my
not so very full bloomed matured-ness.haha(:
RACHAEL,SIMRAN,MICHELLE,DENISE,KRISTIE
RACHEL,CECILIA(chong, tan and foo.haha.)
AND THE REST OF THE WORLD:
i absolutely miss you much(:
even though i've only seen some of you yesterday,
but still! i miss you.haha(:
self note:
1. need to get rid of my eye bags and the hard blinking of my eyes.
2. do 100 crunches daily!
(somehow, i feel like taking up boxing.haha(:
maybe i should save up for a punching bag((: )
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February 29th, 2008 @ 11:32pm
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i think im on my way to learn what courage
really means.
and cos you make me smile even
when i cant (:
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February 25th, 2008 @ 7:14pm
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outing with denise today to make up for
not turning up for her bbq on sat.
bused down to bugis. haha.today was love.
its been awhile since i went out with her.we talked lots in the bus.
went window shopping all.i have a to buy list of clothes again!(:
march hols im gg out with her again.she said said help me
pick clothes that make me look more 17-ish with me having to dress
in stuff i dont like or wont feel me anymore(:
today i realised alot. maybe its a good thing that i did.
i liked the time we shared today honestly.cos we dont get that
so often now. i really like gg out in small small groups.
one on one is the best actually.
let's go out again kay denise! though maybe
shoes i should shop by myself,haha. i know you almost died
trying to find one my size((:
im sorry i had to head home so early.
march hols we'll shop longer kay?((:
thanks much for today(:
you simply are the best.
lovesss<3
but really,
GET BETTER SOOON!!!!((:
see you tmr then!
p.s: i'll try.
[ you know what i mean ]
we should take more long busridesss too
and learning sign language did come in handy.
though im sorrry i pretty much failed in registering the
signs in my head,heh((:
and maybe it is true,
that i care a little bit more then little about
what people think of me.
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February 23rd, 2008 @ 10:20pm
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met them for lunch before we headed to school.
bus ride there was utterly fun. we were all kinda high and
probably the only ones too.haha.
thinking day this year was most boring i swear i almost died
of bordem. but really guides, even if it was boring i think its very rude
to talk freaking loudly and leave for toilet breaks in big groups
while people are giving a speech.god,i was so irritated.
guides received silver pun noor aisha award this year,
cheered super loudly and tried our very best to be enthu for the
rest of the day.
started late therefore ended late.
therefore had dinner late.
but all in all it was fun wasnt it?
i dead tired i swear.
guides is becoming love again(:
but you know i still do care for you as well.
though i dun like having a usual,
guides usuals are different.
in a special kind of way whether sjc or ij tp.
we arnt that close but how close we are right
now, is alright with me.
not too close and not too distant. its the best usual
ever.
honestly,
i do not mean anything.
i still care.
trust me please?
cos i really do.
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February 22nd, 2008 @ 9:25pm
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guides tmr! very excited.
meeting them at compass for breakfast / lunch before
heading to school(:
very excited((: yes yes, i do love guides very very much(:
today wasn't so bad. though i really must say
i feel totally uncomfortable when !-! is around.
don't ask me why.i just don't like the aura emitting out.
it feels scary really. no, i feel super scared around !-!
i told jasveer and she agreed. haha. jasveer and i are getting along pretty
fine i must say. im glad(:
i'm glad i'm talking to everyone in my class.but most of all...
I'M GLAD WE'RE FINALLY MAKING A CLASS TEE!!!!yayyy((:
after what seemed like a million gazillion years,we're going to have a class
tee(((:
i got 2 free ticks to watch spiderwick on 15 march.
haven collected the ticks yet though.maybe soon(:
i wonder if i should ask them to come if they wanna watch.
i wouldnt mind paying for my tick and giving them the 2 free ones(:
maybe i'll ask them around next week(:
im awfully happy today,
though i know they will be times i feel
like shooting myself dead,
but happy is fine(:
cos i believe i've finally found myself,
if not,
i believe i'm nearly there.
and please tell me what being 17 means?
cos if you can give give me a defination of a 17 year old,
i believe you have no right to say i never grow up.
cos i believe i have.
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